Today I'm grateful that I'm managing my own mood in the midst of the erratic behavior of loved ones this weekend. So far at least. I reminded myself that the behavior of others is about them and doesn't have much to do with me, so I've been feeling calm. Tired yes, but calm.
By the way, the "boyfriend" lost yet another job (I've lost count) and said he was drunk when he called me. I must really be strong to have managed a relationship for this long with so much unpredictability. I don't really get upset anymore. When it gets weird I just mute my phone and do other things till he tires himself out, lol. Meditation has been so helpful too. I've been really good at that, and at journaling gratitude lists!
Until I figure out where to meet healthy people (wherever those elusive species are hiding) I'll just have to continue with intensive self care so I can meet each challenge with strength and grace. Maybe it's just part of being human. We're all so unique and things can't go smoothly all the time. Some people are just a little more tempermental than others..
Anyway, today I'm grateful for my happily sober brain, chocolate, my cat, my books, my beautiful plants, and the experiences of life, including the not necessarily pleasant ones, because they challenge my mind's problem solving abilities and make me appreciate the good times even more. There's beauty in everything, including all the imperfections.
Voila.
5:50 p.m. - 2020-02-10