Happy memories:
playing cards with my grandma and her laughing at me when she won. She woke up every morning with the sun rise and began cooking and was always prepared with food to last several months. Her house was always spotless and when emotionally immature people who came to her for help she always handled it with such grace. I feel like I have become her this year, and it delights me.
Today's affirmation:
I can do the work required to be happy and healthy.
Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of:
not doing things I enjoy, like creating or dance
I am grateful for:
my own damn self! my grandparents! plants. caffeine. sun. my perfumed couch.
The person I am becoming will experience more:
upstanding people in my life
I accomplished:
I was good with boundaries last night when the Alcoholic wanted to complain while clearly drunk. He said his landlord locked him out, which she wouldn't do unless he did something stupid. He most likely was too drunk to understand how keys work. When he texted later (a lot of times) I put my phone on night mode and didn't worry myself about it. I'm not responsible for the emotional well-being of anyone but myself.
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
create and dance
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
like my grandparents would be proud.
7:31 a.m. - 2020-05-24