Found out that the girlfriend of the same friend who randomly threw shade my way, is an anti semite. She follows someone who literally blamed the jews for the virus. Just like Europeans blamed the jews for the plague in the dark ages. I feel betrayed. How many more close friends I gotta lose to anti semitism?
Helicopters circle my neighborhood day and night because I live at the epicenter of some of the protests. I heard a lot of explosions and possible gunshots last night. Curfew has been imposed. My pets are scared. I can't stop thinking about how the number of femicides this year far exceeds the murders of any other group in the United States yet no one mentions it. Many other countries have protested the disturbingly high rate of femicide. As a result of action taken in response to protests, femicides in Spain were drastically reduced by half. Only mens lives matter in this country. The silence of women and about women is deafening. Even Saudi Arabia is advancing womens rights. Meanwhile we keep going backward. In too many ways..... It's unreal.
Even people on nextdoor have gone insane. Talking about being vigilantes with guns. The crazy ones are getting the most likes. I'm actually seeing blue lives matter flags and I can't believe it. This used to be a liberal progressive place but apparently my neighborhood has been taken over by people who want to vote out "the liberals." Uhhh. Are these really Trump supporters? Here??
The people are not okay.
Nonetheless, this is still the only life we've got. I can't control hate and violence. I can only control myself and I can only be helpful to others if I continue to keep my morale up as best I can because the world obviously isn't going to stop trying to beat me down. I have no choice but to get stronger.
Happy memories:
Obama.
Today's affirmation:
I can do the work required to be happy and healthy -- even and ESPECIALLY in challenging times
Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of:
social media. it's toxic and full of misinformation and ignorance and scapegoating.
I am grateful for:
noise cancelling headphones, that my loved ones are still alive, that i'm still alive, my health, roof, food, safety
The person I am becoming will experience more:
friends who I connect deeply with or who truly respect our differences - no more anti semites
I accomplished:
I cooked a lot in advance yesterday and am so glad I did
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
quit social media
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
very brave
6:54 a.m. - 2020-05-31