My friends are a very, very diverse set, not very many white people, and very, very liberal. I don't have any midwestern bible thumping racist family like some apparently do, and I'm grateful I don't have to endure that. My social media feeds are quite different than what it seems like many others have to deal with. My annoyances are more along the lines of: why one of my white acquaintances suddenly seems to think she is the end all be all expert on racism, with a bit of a white savior complex, who, although whiter than anyone I know and living in an exclusively white region (and younger and less educated than me both scholastically and experience-wise) speaks condescendingly to anyone within earshot, having crowned herself the authority on race, on behalf of all black people. What.
I haven't said anything about it but I muted her. I wish people like her would shut up and let black people talk. But maybe I'm just grumpy about social media in general. It's full of polarization and group-think and divisive talk by people who think they're changing the world by sitting on their couch staring at their phones all day. If they really want to do something they should just do it. They can start by putting their phones down. I have a masters degree in library science, and even I don't believe that joining a book club is going to fix racism, unless you're so dumb that you really need a book to tell you : 'racism = bad'
I also feel that my bitter opinions should be kept off social media to avoid offending anyone. Things are stressful enough for everyone as it is, regardless of whether I like how they handle themselves online. People are feeling raw and I think it's wise to only share something if it can truly contribute something meaningful, without condescension or judgment or assumptions. I'd rather be adult about this, or pause until I can communicate with clarity and maturity. Something I wish more people would do... Until then, I will deposit my garbage in this diary where it hopefully causes minimal damage or annoyance to humankind except to the unfortunate one or two humans who might actually read it. (I sincerely apologize. I'm just processing life like everyone else.)
Happy memories:
deep conversations with holocaust survivors and immigration stories from all the interesting people I've met and known, here and abroad.
Today's affirmation:
I am peace and magic
Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of:
re-annoying myself when i can simply mute, unfollow, or block
I am grateful for:
the relative quiet today, the food i baked, that i'm loved, my uniqueness and creativity which is my superpower and helps me cope, excellent meditations, animals, plants
The person I am becoming will experience more:
inner peace, maturity, spiritual level awareness, the ability to let go of setbacks quickly, the ability to observe non judgmentally
I accomplished:
116 days of meditation since november
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
enjoy simple things such as the moment i am in
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
glad
11:25 a.m. - 2020-06-16