Well. I still feel ill at ease. But, that's to be expected, considering current events. I talked with the Alcoholic though. I guess we have been in each other's lives so long that nothing can really divide us. Not even if we spend a week, or 6 months, not speaking. We talk and forgive easily. If nothing else, I guess that is healthy. To have a love that flexible and secure that we can take as many breaks and boundaries and freedom as necessary and still come together for some mutual support, only when we need it. Actually, this is probably the most stable our relationship has ever been, because I think we both know that after either of us go through our individual moments of needing to be alone, or making individual mistakes, we know we can rely on each other to still show up later on, when we are again on the same page. Generally when we're together, we just want to have fun. We have friendship, and a lot of freedom, during a time when these are probably the things we need the most. Despite our brokenness, it kind of works. Probably because we don't live together. I am currently at peace with it.
Happy memories:
long summers outdoors, river or beach days, nature, nature, nature.
Today's affirmation:
Whatever will be, will be.
Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of:
thinking. about anything. lol.
I am grateful for:
person(s) who read my innermost feelings and understand. hi! that feels nice, knowing we're not alone in all the confusion on this floating planet.
Also grateful for green tea, pets, plants, the moon, and every person who is still able to connect without ego battles, and against all odds and despite bad news. I still see love in people.
The person I am becoming will experience more:
calm awareness of reality and ability to go directly through it and laugh, without fear, without anger, without blame, without ego.
I accomplished:
meditated, journaled, read the news without a breakdown yay
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
model mature behavior.
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
like a queen
12:18 p.m. - 2020-07-06