I am teetering on the verge of depression, which is my cue to put more effort into things like yoga and eating more greens. I reshaved my sidecuts yesterday so I can feel clean. Everything is so loud today. Slamming doors in the hall, sirens, construction, weird thuds and drills on the roof, the cat kicking toys around, more slamming doors, more sirens.
I found some old letters written by my great great grandma to my great grandma during the Great Depression after she lost her job. She said to my great grandma, "Don't worry too much, everything will work out, they always do." I also read letters from my great grandpa in his home country, telling my nana she should feel very grateful to live where she lives, because where he was the water wasn't even suitable for bathing. His life at that time was difficult but he still managed to tell jokes and express gratitude for the little things.
Happy memories:
hugging friends in dance class
Today's affirmation:
I show my body love
Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of:
complaining because what is even the point anymore
I am grateful for:
letters from my ancestors that make me feel that they are with me. the sense of time travel or being in a different time and place. my fridge full of food -- now if I can just motivate myself enough to cook so I won't waste any of it!
The person I am becoming will experience more:
humor, less fear
I accomplished:
meditated, journaled, stayed alive
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
cook healthy for myself
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
okay
1:33 p.m. - 2020-07-23