Okay one rant because I don't want to start fights on social media.
There are men in my life who have been SO outspoken and involved in defending black lives, well, black MALE lives. (Which is very good.) But don't think I don't notice that these very same men did not defend me when their male friend was antisemitic, these same men were quiet during #metoo, have been outright sexist and homophobic and unsupportive of feminism. These same men don't have a bit of a problem with regularly watching stories about women being raped and murdered because of a love of serial killers, which they watch every day at breakfast, yet view feminism as the enemy? Like, how? How do you 1. enjoy watching women being killed, and 2. not notice that women are disproportionate victims of violent crime? And 3. why do they seemingly deliberately not mention Breonna Taylor and all the other black WOMEN who were murdered, in their own homes. And 4. am I really the only one who notices that the killers seem to be exclusively male? I think all women see it, we're just afraid to say it, for the same reason I'm sharing this in an anonymous diary rather than social media. Because once I suggested that maybe it was time to have a woman president or more women in politics, and a male acquaintance called ME sexist for suggesting that. (Every single president has been male. I mean... really? The mere thought of one woman in power is that emasculating?) It's like if a white person calls a black person racist for saying don't kill me. IT MAKES NO SENSE.
And men don't understand why they don't get any sex from us.
In semi related news, did you know that in ancient neolithic times, the priestess was by default the head of state, and she would take a young lover who would serve as "king" for a year and when the year was up he was ritually sacrificed?!
A clay cuneiform tablet from ancient Babylonia also says the Goddess Ishtar ritually sacrificed her son-lover "god" after he arrogantly thirsted for her power and throne. So she disposed of him, and got a new bae. Every year. To be fair, the world has pretty much gone to shit since queens started letting their kings run amok.
I don't believe in the death penalty but, in my romantic experience, men do become too arrogant and start taking over my life after about a year, or less. I can see the value in dating someone new every year and getting the hell out before they get too cocky. A symbolic death, and rebirth with a new lover. It's a fantastic idea. If I could even stomach a man for an entire year...
I had a dream about my friend's alcoholic. He broke into our house waiting for a chance to see her. He said hi and I hugged him twice. I told him she never keeps men long, and that she kept him longer than any man prior, so he should feel special. His entire face was a mask with cutouts for the eyes, nostrils and mouth, like he had cleanly obsessively crafted his own mask to the world. She broke his heart terribly and I don't think he was the worst of men but she had a right to leave and he made it as traumatic an experience as possible because he couldn't move on. I got along well with him, and I was with them on their first date together, but she is my friend first and foremost, so I blocked him after they broke up, because he was contacting her friends afterward, including me. Part of me didn't want to sever ties with someone I had no personal problem with, but I am fiercely loyal to my female friends. Ovaries before broveries por vida.
12:09 p.m. - 2020-07-24