So, I don't want to dwell on this subject for very long because it's not helpful after a while, but,
This is the third person close to me who became homeless and who I needed to distance myself from because of their inability to regulate emotions, specifically anger. First it was my half brother, then my mom, now the Alcoholic. Actually I also have another ex who was homeless too, also with emotional issues. And I had three exes with pretty crazy road rage.
I like being alone because I am safe away from scary angry people. This pattern of mine, oh boy. Like, love is great and all but can I just try to stay alive and not worry about a lover kicking or punching things in my house maybe? Like maybe could I feel safe in my own house instead? Can society stop shoving sex and relationships down my throat like its something I need to keep trying with more people until I find "the one"? I'm a woman! If I give anymore chances I may end up dead!
8:55 p.m. - 2020-08-22