Wrestled with myself a bit and decided to stop fighting it and just let depression do its thing. We depressed. It okay. It's not forever. It's just a feeling. I won't fucking die if I have to feel it. Come at me bro. Have at it, go wild, be depressed. Let's do this.
So that feels a little better, facing it, instead of trying to outrun it and failing and being pissed off at myself. It's okay to feel depressed. Totally okay. Can't keep up with simple chores? Not gonna beat myself up. I can always take care of it tomorrow, it's not going anywhere.
Okay. Deeeeeep breath.
I don't need to be perfect. I am human and humans have feelings and that's normal. There is a lot going on in the world but in the here and now I am safe.
Everything will be okay. I'm not going to abandon myself here. I'm going to start very small, clean just a little with my new friend Depressia, and then wash my hair, because I love myself, even when I feel bad.
Okay? Okay.
3:31 p.m. - 2020-10-23