Had two cups of coffee. Tried to "socialize" on facebook and discord. Thought about taking a bath and saw that this morning's cat shit is still there on the bathroom floor. Left it there and changed my mind about a bath, the same way I left the dishes pile up in the sink. Haven't eaten today. No appetite. I think I'll go back to sleep. There is no reason for me to be here. I have nothing to do and am not needed anywhere. I would call my ex and tell him I need help because I am just withering away here. But last night he initiated hanging up earlier than usual so maybe he doesn't want to be bothered. So I'm not bothering anyone. Flowers wilt when they're not watered. I don't know. I don't care. Can't see the sun outside because I'm a woman. Two coffees and still depressed. Goodnight again.
12:35 p.m. - 2020-10-23