The noise today is mind boggling. Sirens and construction and helicopters, oh my!
I went out to vote which only took a few minutes, and even then an ambulance and fire truck roared past.
I thought about the people who honk their horns to express impatience as if everyone else doesn't also have somewhere to be, and how they're not dissimilar from people who outwardly vomit their mental health issues on social media, as if everyone else is not also nervous about politics, coronavirus, etc.. We know, Karen, we know.
(Diaries don't count. Journaling is proper medicine.)
It's gonna be a long week of anxiety but I stocked up on every remedy I could think of to weather this storm. I'm treating it like finals week. We're in the final stretch! (...Right???)
I plan to listen to music and bake awesome things every day to keep myself fed, busy, and warm. I'll try not to trouble myself too much about how angry I am at the Alcoholic because it'll just make me suffer more. If I feel the need to make a comforting cocktail or zone out on weed, I'll give myself a free pass to do so because these are extraordinary times, and I'm doing it 100% alone.
I'm having my second period of the month so that's interesting. This seems to be a new thing that happens in 2020 when I'm stressed. I caught myself in the mirror looking extremely anemic with circles under my eyes, which means I should maybe try harder at being healthy and not stressed. I feel relieved now that I've got voting out of the way and ordered my anxiety survival kit of teas and cbd and tinctures and healthy foods (and chocolate).
(...Breathe...)
I'm ready. Bring it on.
4:02 p.m. - 2020-10-29