I'm still irate that I wasted a week answering millions of questions by the dude who then used my vulnerable honest answers to assume I'm a whore for getting pregnant -- with my boyfriend of 10 years, who dumped me after sex, then two months later discovering I was pregnant, which I wasn't aware of when I agreed to go on a date with the shaming Christian jerk.
As if I wanted to get pregnant. Or be abandoned while pregnant by someone I loved for the entirety of my 30s, scared, betrayed, heartbroken, and dangerously physically ill, being ignored by the father of the child in my womb, going to the hospital alone.
This is how pregnant women are treated? I have the power to create LIFE, and this man who knows nothing about me automatically assumes I'm a villain because my body is biologically built to create life. Does he think this shit is fun?
This is why I don't like sex anymore. Men taught me that if I have sex with them it's my fault if an accident occurs on THEIR end. I'm to blame, and on top of that a whore. A whore who hasn't even had sex this year. A whore who slept with a total of one person last year, and only twice with 6 months of celibacy between. Tell me again how I'm a whore?
And I remember on our date, he was flirting with other women at the bar. While on a date! I didn't say anything about it. Double standards much?
What a sexist piece of shit. Even the Alcoholic never brought shame into the conversation in all the years I've known him. Even the deadbeat Alcoholic, who abandoned me while pregnant and put me through so much emotional distress, would never talk down to me condescendingly implying I'm a slut for having healthy functioning female reproductive organs and a monogamous heart. If I am a whore, what on earth does it take to be a good woman, in his misogynistic eyes?
11:36 a.m. - 2021-04-08