Today's affirmation:
I will get back into a dailyish easy yoga routine that I enjoy.
I am grateful for:
That I did therapy before pandemic and adopted some improved coping habits. Meditation especially. But also regularish journaling. Also grateful for my indoor jungle. I'm rescuing other people's dying plants and propagating dozens of new plants from old plants. And the little citrus tree I grew from an orange (or lemon? or mandarin?) that I ate last year is growing so fast.
Also I guess I'm grateful that I seem to be surviving despite the fact that when I log onto social media you'd think the world already ended. I guess I'm grateful that I've been through way, way worse than this, so despite everything, I feel like even when it's overwhelming, it's never insurmountable. I breathe, and find something better to focus on, and live another day. I know people don't want to hear this, but from the perspective of someone with social anxiety who had been surviving on alcohol to support my fairly intense social life, this year has been a vacation from being spread far too thin, and finally I've had a rest from my social butterfly charade that I was so good at faking, that I still can't get a break from texts, over a year of solitude later. A testament to the powers of alcohol, or my astonishing ability to chug along through discomfort at my own peril. It's all very clear now how much I neglected my own health in order to be a "good friend" or lover, and how little I considered boundaries a necessary facet of life. I realize now.
The person I am becoming will experience more:
quality sleep and good dreams
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
practice acceptance and gratitude...and maybe a few feel-good yoga stretches.
4:56 p.m. - 2021-05-12