Today felt like a waste of my time and gas and emotional reserves. And now I feel sad.
But, I got to spend a few minutes on a playground swing for the first time in awhile and saw a few trees and walked around a little.
I came home and took a salt bath and cried. I'm grateful I can take salt baths. I was grateful to be able to cry it out and grateful to wash the tears off. Grateful to wash the bad vibes off.
I tried my best today. Not every day can be awesome. I can't make everyone happy.
I checked my personalized astrology at the park, solely because of the thing that happened, expecting it to say something to explain my day. But it said nothing bad on my end. "Light and pleasant thoughts" it predicted. "You will avoid serious topics of conversation or anything that might produce conflicts... You are more concerned with keeping peace than with making a favorable arrangement." I think I did succeed at keeping the peace, but by avoidance. I felt very uncomfortable. I lied and said I was just tired. I guess that wasn't really a lie. I was and am emotionally tired.
I wouldn't mind feeling more appreciated. But maybe another day I'll receive that. Elsewhere.
9:02 p.m. - 2021-07-01