Yesterday was so wonderful! I got to see some music friends I dearly missed. There is nothing better than live music in the park in summer. We caught up about each other's lives and everyone was smiling and dancing and happy and feeling the moment. I am so glad I showed up! Nothing else has felt worth taking risks for, and this seemed relatively low risk anyway, or at least I hope so.
I purchased at-home covid test kits to take before seeing my dad, just in case, although I wore a mask when talking at closer range since I wasn't able to get that second dose (yet?). But now my heart feels so content that I could happily live the rest of the year as a recluse again if need be. It was just the dose of joy I needed and had been craving more than anything else I've missed during this marathon pandemic.
Everyone there was fully vaccinated, except the small children, but one wore a mask and I maintained a buffer zone between myself and them anyway. Hopefully my preventative measures were sufficient to avoid delta. I'll know within a few days. Fingers crossed. I'm grateful transmission rates are very low here.
I am bracing myself for more distancing to come and delta and delta plus are out there and who knows what after that. So much is unknown and it's hard to get a single straight forward answer about anything, but I hope next month will bring conclusive results to several scientific studies so that we all have a clearer idea of what we're up against.
For now I'm still blissing out on the residual joy of one very fulfilling weekend that I'd been absolutely aching for, and I made my feelings known to these friends, that they're important, that I've missed them, and that they're actually the first non family / non partners I've socialized with, in all this time. I wanted them to know that.
I've had so much time to reflect and it became really apparent which people deserve more priority in my life and who granted me the most joy and understanding throughout the past decade. I'm glad I finally had a chance to tell them how much I appreciate them. I hugged them twice each before departing and was invited for social distanced walks whenever I feel like it. Heart is happy and grateful beyond words.
12:02 p.m. - 2021-07-12