My hair is washed and I'm sitting in my boyshort underpants drinking coffee to go with the sativa I took. Due to taking said sativa I missed out on a last minute invite to the botanical gardens.
But the invitation reminded me that I actually have friends, which cheered me up, thinking about how much I love these particular friends and how glad I am that they're in my life, and for so many years now. I love that. This is a source of happiness in my life here.
Community is something that matters to me a lot, I've learned. I get a very strong sense of family in these belongings in the arts, and that's something I really need, being from a family that became fragmented into non existence. Certain circles soothe this need for family in me. It heals that part of me that hurts. Every gathering is a fun family reunion. And now that some people bring their kids to gatherings, it feels even more like a big family. I like it. It feels very safe. And arts themselves are medicine and a way to heal too.
Now I'm listening to Selena in my underpants. I REALLY should have gone out today but I will forgive myself for that. Park would have been nice. But it's also nice to be sitting around comfortably listening to my happiest playlist with a mild caffeine and sativa high and a clean feeling scalp. I feel a lot better than I was feeling for most of the week. For the moment at least.
I miss my friends and doing things that are cool and inspiring!
But I'm grateful for all this time to sort out my priorities in life. Lessons abound in times like these.
Grateful for coffee, sativa, freshly washed hair, boyshorts, my nosferatu shirt, my imagination and dreams, food, housing, the weekend, cleanish air, air purifying plants, music, and friends!
3:53 p.m. - 2021-08-27