Cleaned all the things that were bothering me tonight but only after taking a long nap and sleeping 10+ hours last night. First night in awhile that I didn't wake up in the middle of the night.
Still not dreaming like I used to before April. I think I blew a fuse in that part of my brain after my body overreacted to vaccine with intense graphic dream sleep-paralysis/hallucinations. Or maybe I'm subconsciously scared to sleep fully since then. It was traumatizing.
I think it'll go back to normal in time, just like how I didn't dream for 6 months after mushrooms. For the same reason I think. Like I crashed the hyperreal dreams region of my subconscious while it was in overdrive. My brain overheated. I worried I'd lost my dreams forever after mushrooms, but I was back to normal in 6 months.
I am dreaming but the dreams are just not very crisp or memorable. They are normally in HD and so real. Maybe I'm depressed and mentally lazy. Maybe I am running out of storage in my brain and it decided to take it easy with the dreams because they use up way too much memory space and other things are taking priority right now.
My chronic pain hasn't happened at all this month and I strongly suspect it's the royal jelly. It comes in honey and I take a half teaspoon every morning like medicine. It is my new favorite thing. I think maybe I found a cure.
11:12 p.m. - 2021-09-07