Maybe it's enough, what we had.
Anyway, it was fun, right?
The disease wasn't about me. None of the problems outside had anything to do with us.
You and me were okay. So what if the ending was shit. We had fun together. That's enough for me.
Our meeting was profound for both of us. We made each other goofy happy.
Maybe it was meant to be this way, just as it was. No edits.
It's enough for me.
We loved each other in different ways. You brought me comfort in grief. I was the one you wanted to die with. Glad I didn't lol.
I miss your stupid voice. I feel like you're still around.
Thanks for bringing me home, and giving home new memories.
We shared all each other's favorite places. Laughed a lot. Cuddled. Stared into each other's eyes. Shared so many personal stories -- although you left one really important one out! But I'll forgive you, eventually.
You should have seen me weep for you, R, three days straight hyperventilating.
Wish you were here, but that'd be selfish.
Can't believe we didn't get to say goodbye. But like your grandpa said, "well, life is hard." Say hello to him for me.
Thanks for showing me such a damned good time while you were here. For everything. For waving goodbye on the street every time I drove away and making sure I got home. For trusting me with your key. For being my wedding date. For showing me every mountain winery every beautiful warm day. For sitting with me on my secret rock. For hiking ruins and ghost hunting with me at the site of my recurring dreams. For being so proud to show me off to everyone. Thank you for being just exactly who you were.
I'm coming back for you later you know. Maybe we could haunt some places together someday or something.
By the way, now I'm the one going around telling everyone I was your girlfriend. I figured someone should, now that you're not here to tell that lie. You started that rumor, I'm just going along with it now, haha. How romantic is that. You're welcome.
10:31 p.m. - 2022-10-30