The weirdest one yet happened. Prepare to shit yourself. I am not making this up:
I hadn't talked to N in weeks which isn't unusual. Then I dreamed he was dressed in drag at a drag convention, and left with a gay man I never saw before whose face I remember very clearly, thick straight eyebrows, a buzz cut, light brown hair, brown almond shaped eyes.
I told N my dream that morning. He FREAKED out. He said he had booked an appointment with a gay therapist fitting that description the day before, and the appointment was scheduled later that day. He said he booked the appointment to discuss gender identity issues. I had no idea any of this had been on his mind. He hadn't told me anything before this.
I asked if there was a photo of this man. He sent a photo. It was the same face of the guy in my dream. Ok... That's weird. His bio said he's lgbtq+ and specializes in gender/trans issues.
This has never happened before, at least not that I was aware of, in which a character in a dream turned out to be a REAL person who I never met. What in the...
Usually dreams don't shock me but this time I felt nauseous. It wasn't a good dream: The therapist had abused his power and coercively controlled N. He viewed me as a threat and didn't allow N to talk to me. It was all so sudden. He called me a bitch and drove away with N in the passenger seat. I was left stranded, but M stayed with me for just long enough to find a way home, and the journey home with M seemed long and uncomfortable in my dream.
Hours after telling him my dream, N canceled the appointment. I didn't tell him to. He felt this dream was too accurate to ignore, that it might be a warning. I guess we'll never know.
I felt bad, so I suggested he try the virtual support groups I do. It's better to receive support from multiple perspectives instead of just one self-designated expert in an imbalanced power dynamic involving monetary exchange, in my experience anyway. Support groups can be more validating than one person pathologizing/prescribing. I've personally found the former helpful. (Then again, if I keep having precognition like this maybe I need more help than I think! LOL.)
Oh and that part of the dream with the long trip home with M? That happened too. Later that same day he forgot to wear his mask in a public restroom, which triggered a manic episode, he blamed me (?) and started rapidfire swearing at LIGHTNING SPEED, while I sat silently confused until I realized it was just mania talking. I handled it calmly, but the drive back home to drop him off was long and uncomfortable, like my dream.
I hadn't mentioned that to N, but he later said he'd had a nightmare that he forgot to mask and that I was mad at him. Same night. I also thought that was a little odd.
saturday - 2023-09-16