but the days are going by fast. Friends wish they had a partner right now, meanwhile I still feel like after my experiences with men, being alone is a vacation, even under these circumstances. I also feel like it is somehow improper to reveal that I am happier in solitude. So far I've kept it to myself. The joy no one needs to know about. The friend who wishes she had a man, never actually had one before. She's so lucky and she doesn't even know. I saw a meme of a woman willingly laying across train tracks with the words "I'm attracted to men." I'm kicking myself for not saving it.
Happy memories:
the first time i went to the city with my dad and we ate tiramisu and there was excitement and culture everywhere
Today's affirmation:
I AM NO ONE'S MOTHER AND I OWE MEN NOTHING.
Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of:
giving men any more chances, ever. it's NEVER worth it.
I am grateful for:
the experience of quarantine. the experience of freedom from men is eye opening, and allows me to see what I want for my life going forward.
The person I am becoming will experience more:
unshakeable inner peace
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
just do me for a change without worrying if the self destructive addicts in my life are okay. and i'm going to try to forgive myself for spending $57 on the phone bill of a dishonest man who manipulated me into paying it.
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
freedom
9:13 a.m. - 2020-04-14