Happy memories:
the ease of childhood friendships and being a part of that secret world of jump rope rhymes and ghost stories and every day magic
Today's affirmation:
I am abundant fulfilling love
Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of:
focusing emotions on the wrong people.
I am grateful for:
willing myself to eat breakfast finally, music to soften my sadness, coffee to kick depression in the balls
The person I am becoming will experience more:
If I must suffer, I may as well suffer artfully, with music and a whole aesthetic, to romanticize the pain, to give it soft lighting, some velvet curtains and a harp. Then it feels like more of a beautiful film about the bitter-sweetness of life, instead of a horrible dull nothingness. Here you go heartache, rest on these soft pillows in the imaginary courtyard with orange and fig trees, like a Goddess in flowing robes, tears watering the roots of the earth pregnant with spring. Huh, maybe I should write poetry.
I accomplished:
This is the first moment I've been sober since he left. I must be leveling up.
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
am in the present moment of peace
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
slightly less sad.
11:29 a.m. - 2020-10-11