On a personal level, I'm kind of tired of people acting like children and creating drama based on fictional realities in their heads since covid began. I understand it's a stressful horrible awful no good time, but that isn't my fault. I have been indoors all alone like a good citizen, staying in my lane and avoiding bothering anyone. But these texts and people just come at me like a magnet like I'm supposed to save them, just because we went on one date four years ago. I'm here just trying to save myself really. I don't even have much energy left to comfort the people closest to me right now. My days are currently measured in weed doses to pass the time, so i'm floating on a cloud mostly, just daydreaming the time away waiting for vaccine, chillin. Do these people really have no other people to talk to? Can't they see I'm trying to be a hermit here.
I still do not understand how people have tantrums so outwardly and take things out on people. When I have a feeling I think "I'm feeling a feeling. I should probably journal about it so I'll feel better." And then I sort it out so I don't need to bark at anyone in my life about it. It's so easy.
2:48 p.m. - 2021-04-07