I did the adult thing and told my friend thanks for checking in and that I'm overwhelmed and will get back to her when I'm fully recovered. Which is better than stewing and fleeing for fear of hurting anyone's feelings. She understood. Now I just have to say the exact same thing to like five other friends. But next time I think I won't mention vaccines at all unless they ask. I'm tired of being pressured or everyone thinking they're a doctor. First I need to mend myself -- and THEN we can discuss hanging out, or health issues, or whatever. One thing at a time please. I move at my own pace, okay. I don't multitask in potential life or death situations. I focus until it's resolved.
Happy memories:
Missing childhood a lot lately. Missing having lots of family around, laughing, playing, long summers, nature, friends, crafts. We had fun.
Today's affirmation:
When I feel pressured I will pause and respond maturely instead of fleeing and stewing.
I am grateful for:
The birds chirping outside my window. Lion's mane. Beauty in all forms.
The person I am becoming will experience more:
health
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
cook something healthy for myself
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
peaceful
8:50 a.m. - 2021-05-06