Been thinking a lot about the phrase "hurt people hurt people." Because it's true, of everyone, and myself. I've noticed and, it's obvious even, that the highly specific ways that others have hurt me are a direct result of the ways they were hurt. It's so obvious to me now to see which of my friendships were trauma bonds. I don't think it's necessarily bad. It's a mutual way of healing. But I've maybe graduated from *some* traumas, dealt with them head on, or they've lost their power over me enough that I can wrestle with them on my own, so some connections are no longer helpful in the ways they may have been before. Or they've just shifted in importance, or mean something slightly different now. Ah the classroom of life...
I emailed my doctor about my intense and much longer than average recovery time of vaccine side effects to get her opinion. I want to be fully vaccinated, I just don't want to end up in ER over it. I swear it feels like it triggered early menopause, but it's probably temporary?
Great news though, I reduced the noise pollution in my apartment by about half! I went crazy researching what I can do to fix it, and then did nearly every single tip and trick without spending a penny, and it actually helped! I still hear sirens, but not as piercing. I barely notice the neighbor's slamming door now. And I'm not even done soundproofing yet. I still have to tackle my largest bay windows, the biggest culprit. I'm excited because the progress is more noticeable than I thought it'd be. It's marvelous!
Today's affirmation:
I am healing and growing more awesome with each passing day.
I am grateful for:
The black kaftan I live in now. My head massager. Sound proofing.
The person I am becoming will experience more:
health
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
accept life as is
9:10 a.m. - 2021-05-08