Unalcoholic came over and made me feel much better. We did our usual stuff. Hiking, exploring, eating well, playing games, absorbing the quickly disappearing sun and enjoying each other's company while we can. His days off are precious. We appreciate each other more lately.
He listened to my dad problems and was very validating and supportive. He used his bartending skills to make an amazing sparkling pomegranate mezcal cocktail with cherries for me, and we shared a very fancy joint he had acquired at work. Then I took a bath and he gave me a massage and we had sex. It was healing and soothed my overthinking and anxieties.
And he cooked a lot. It helps because when I'm sad or traumatized I find it impossible to summon an appetite.
His cooking makes me enthusiastic about eating. He knows how to appeal to all my senses. I don't even mind all the extra dishes I have to do and I'm actually happy to clean up his cooking messes because it feels like a fair trade.
It's been good lately with us. When we're together it's an escape from the world. We get to act like weird kids and just play and be silly in nature or at home. I gotta say, I'm feeling grateful to have our exact kind of bond. It's comforting, and he's someone I can rebel with a little too. It's nice to feel freedom at the same time as love.
5:25 p.m. - 2021-10-14